Just something to kick my old emo Blog away.

Me <<< has birthday today

Ok... now I have to kick this Blog later too, lol

Just kinda something to replace the old blog.

You don't need to read this, its nothing important, I just want to TALK

Ok, I don't know whats going on... I feel so bad atm, everything is just a pain, always tired, even small things start depressing me, somehow lost every goal in my life, nothing left I looking forward to do.
Pretty early for winter depressions but I'm not sure that this is the reason. I just force myself to draw every day but don't see any improvements at all. Maybe my color skills getting better, but my anatomy is the same crap as always. Every character almost looks like the same, just with different colors, 90% of all pictures got the same facedirection in it because this is the most comfortable way for me to move my pencil. Every second picture gets a sunset or water I can use to hide parts of the body I can't draw very well.

I don't feel like to work harder on my pictures because just the crap I've done without any sense got the most attention. I don't even like...

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Yip so I'm back from Eurofurence 15. It was my first Furry convention and it was just great <3
I don't really care about this but not a single person knew me its ermmm... kinda disappointing D:

Well, ok I was at the convention as SwiftAyama and I know the most people don't get it that RenaAyama is my artistname, but she is not my Fursona... However.
except the furrys I know from chat.

I really need a lot more money next time >.<;
At least I was able to get a comission I always wanted and bought a lot other furry stuff x3 Finally I found an arctic foxie plushi!
A picture I has drawn also got into the convention book (will upload it later) but they messed up the print...

Its kinda ironic... I always lived in Magdeburg (Germany) at the beginning of this year I went to Trier and NOW the Eurofurence will move from Suhl to a bigger hotel in Magdeburg gahhhhh...

I will never forget this convention and all the great Events, especially the Pawpet show x3 just awesome.

baaaack to normal...

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Yesh, so I'm back from Amsterdam after such a wonderfull week.
It was so much fun and I really enjoyed the time together with forceswerwolf and destorarc at foshu's den.
Foshu just made such great food for all of us <3 Thanks for everything foxie~
Ok, I got the worst sunburn in my life and the way back to Germany was just terribly, painful and stressful but I don't care about this because this week was so great <3

Ok, now just Eurofurence 15 left... from August 26 - 30
Hope it also will be a great time.

RenaAyama/SwiftAyama

Yip, I'll be away soon.

Will visit Foshu from August 15 - 23 together with Forceswerwolf and Destorarc

After this I'll go to my first furry convention (Eurofurence 15)
from August 26 - 30 together with Destorarc, Katojana and Forceswerwolf

This will be such a great time <3

Take care

RenaAyama/SwiftAyama