My college life can be a bit... random. For the fall semester, I was signed up for five (yes, 5) courses. Since one of my courses from a past college wasn't accepted by this one (well, it was, but it was too much like a course I had taken in this college, so those credits became null and void), I had to beef up my fall semester. However, just today, I got a call from my college that one of the courses I was going to take was canceled. I don't know why, but that seems to be my luck. I have to admit, though, this college is very generous and caring. They are willing to go out of their way to help a student. I do my classes online, and I'm a special needs student (mostly it just adds up as extra time on timed tests), so they are really quite helpful there. They spent a good time getting my IEP (Individual Education Planner, I think, but I forgot what that means) installed into my records so that no matter what course I take, if there is a timed test (which I pray doesn't happen), I get extra...

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Hello. Recently, I've noticed that my problems, tolerance, and issues have been changing rapidly. My tolerance levels have dropped (to the point I can barely, if at all, tell the difference between harsh-constructive criticism and just plain harsh statements), my emotions have become very knotted up, and my hyper-sensitivity to my surroundings has become a completely dominating force that I can barely fight against. I've also noticed me losing faith in my abilities and losing interest in the things I love (like games, anime, and writing). It's obvious to me that my mental health is slipping again, and my mood is hitting another low. For those of you who don't know, I was diagnosed with depression at age 12 (very bad time for it, what with hormones and changing schools), and it has been a very commanding force in my life since. Now, in my 20's, even though it comes and goes, it can still hinder my confidence and courage. My ability to just get out has been so badly scarred thanks to a very...

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Happy 4th of July! Today is America's birthday. Just don't even attempt to bake a cake for America. You'd need one hell of a large oven to make a cake big enough for the country. *chuckles* Get your fireworks ready, as well as the "other bombshells" out there. Heheh, time to throw a BBQ bash. Don't forget the summer time drinks (like my addiction: strawberry lemonade *drools*).

Anyway, now with summer in full form, I now face my arch nemesis... heat. Unyielding, oppressing, and merciless heat. As you can probably guess, I hate heat. I LOVE the cold, so there is NO WAY I'll EVER go to Florida or any other tropical place. There are two reasons behind this. 1) I get heat sick easily (very easily). 2) I have heat-induced asthma (combine that with most of my allergies are warm-based, you got trouble). Give me 0 degree or below weather any day (for real, I was up in -15 degree weather...

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I'm back... and I'm ROASTING!!! The mountains sure spoiled me. I was so used to the cooler air up there. Now, back on Long Island, it's a bloody inferno down here! It'll also take a while for my window unit AC to cool down my room (this room was once my grandma's, and she refused to have central air put in when she lived here... now that I reside in it, and I thrive in colder temps... anyone order a geek bbq?). But anyway, I needed this break. The first three days were a near disaster, as we forgot a few bags (like bed sheets, towels, and blankets), and the weather was gloomy and rainy. I like rain storms and thunderstorms, but when it's just gloomy and sorta muggy, it gets me down. Because I'm so sensitive to my surroundings, and thanks to the weather and my issue with sudden change, it took me three days to adjust. Around the middle of the week, things got smoother from that point on. Since I have a boater's licence, my family rented a pontoon boat for a little bit. We also took a boat...

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Hi. I know most of you will probably ignore this, but those who RP with me might not take this so well.

Simply put, my RPing days are over.

I had to stop RPing around late last summer, thanks to a demanding school schedule, chaotic everyday life routine, and other annoyances. Another reason is that my ideas just ran dry. I still have creative ideas, both vore and non-vore, but I just no longer have the drive to do it. I know I was trying to reconnect and start over, now that I finally get a break, but my drive, my idea pools, and just my ability have ceased to exist. So, in short, I have to put an end to my RPing ways. I just cannot get back into them, no matter how much I try. I've tried a number of times to revive those ideas and whatnot, but I just can't dig them out again. For the most part, my characters will mostly be seen in short stories and such, so I haven't abandoned them. I just can't revive that drive. I guess the main culprit is college. It's completely drained me of almost...

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