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Pointless Update

Permanent Linkby HypeIshimaru on Tue Oct 01, 2019 4:27 pm

Nothing has changed, still severe imposter syndrome and crippling/paralyzing anxiety towards art.
It will be awhile longer.

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Recent Therapist Visit

Permanent Linkby HypeIshimaru on Sat Sep 07, 2019 5:46 pm

Recently I decided to visit a therapist again, and the sessions where much better than the previous one I went to years ago. So far we've concluded that the main meat of my issues stem from an incredibly low patience when it comes to interests or hobbies of mine, which I guess makes sense the more I dwell on it. I used to have an much higher patience, but it seems to have gotten worse and worse, and has been affecting my attitude over the years.
I suppose I feel better knowing now what I need to work on, but afterwards he made a point that is still sadly true..
If I can't resolve whatever issue this is with me, then no matter where I go or whom I work for, or even if I have more popular artists like my works,
I will NEVER survive in this art world and be happy with myself.

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Eh Ver.50

Permanent Linkby HypeIshimaru on Fri Aug 23, 2019 8:10 pm

Still around, just mostly in Starcraft II and continuously hating everything I've been drawing.
However, I've been wondering again what part do I hate during the illustration, and I think it's coming down to inking.
I'm starting to hate this phase.
Having to go back and draw over my detailed draft with more detailed lines for a second time
is so
fucking
slow
it's getting on my nerves.
So now I want to look into a new style. Maybe this time, a more traditional style, where I can paint over my draft and just add the details there (so it doesn't feel like I'm doing the same process twice before I can even get to the fucking coloring phase). Pretty much, looking for faster methods this time around.

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Hiatus (time frame unknown)

Permanent Linkby HypeIshimaru on Fri Jun 21, 2019 7:53 am

For the moment, I feel like I've lost my purpose for drawing.
Maybe for awhile I'll just stop, let it slumber, quit forcing it..
Cause right now just drawing for the sake of drawing (or to be "hyper realistic"), or for commissions isn't strong enough reasons. Vore art/giantess works are becoming old, stale and
not making me happy currently. It's all feeling quite forced, lacking any love.
It's time to stop and find a new reason.
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Anger

Permanent Linkby HypeIshimaru on Wed Jun 12, 2019 8:28 pm

Nope, still not resolved.
It's still down to the fact that drawing isn't sparking joy right now, even after stating I'm only doing line art.
This is making me beyond livid. Now 'm back to square one..
Great.

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