...is to lose much of their libido for the first seven to eight months when they begin HRT? Which may explain why this past year I'd been in super-prude mode. I can only guess that it's finally catching up to me, and that I'll be horny once again here and there. Maybe more than "here or there" because let's face it, this is second puberty, yes? So a warning that feels wacky for a place like this, if you'd kept away from my favorites.

I am into vore. I like footpaws, but can be picky. I like diapers, but even more picky and some of it is squicky for me. People across the gender spectrum are cute for me, but I like lean boys and girls and transgirls the most. However I may be aromantic, if only due to a sheer amount of self-hate and self-image problems that I'm still...
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I'm not taking down my prior blog entry. Nor would I take down my profiles again anywhere. I hate when artists do the latter, and I stand by my word for the former. Still, let me ask this question. Am I wrong? Am I being a hypocrite? Because I want a good reason to believe I am.

So, today's 8/8. So popular, that #VoreDay was even a trend of Twitter. The only way to really deal with my problems is to drag them out of the dark recesses of my mind, and throw them into the light of day for all to see. These deeply-ingrained feelings I can't stand to acknowledge. Ready?

I'm conflicted about my place in the vore community.

Hell, I'm conflicted about being a part of the furry community in general. If I was something to fear, or really care about, I'd have a thread about my ass on KiwiFarms by now. But I'm not, and being a "lolcow" for chuds and internet fuckwads isn't important. I've been trying to outrun the vore community for years now, much of the time. I've been involved in this thing for over ten years, even as a minor. I used to...
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It's been about three months. I'd gotten back into drawing lately. I'm becoming less of a prude about sexuality.

I'd like to draw more vore.

As inspired by a recent blog entry by  Humbug, I'mma throw in my vore preds' favorite prey and why. Part of me hopes this becomes a meme among other vore artists! This'll include some characters I should probably draw again, which may be vore-exclusive at this point. These may include characters I've rarely used, but likely not one-shot characters. Have been tempted to permavore them, lawl.

Split the listings based on the "eras" of my vore art, distinctly pre-and-post Raziya. It was fun to browse my Eka's Portal gallery and recollect on my older cast. I was a lot more creative with my species choices, and very loose-and-fast with the cast in general. Finding everyone's surname from back when was a pain! Also did a lot of Rule Thirty-Vore back when, lawl.
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And mostly to get rid of the prior post. I'm learning right quick I need to grab what I want in life. And to have confidence in myself. And to be strong, as others will miss me if I vanish. I've got my first HRT appointment in two weeks, as well. Overall, as my new upload would convey, not giving up yet!

...have been a doozy. Holy fuck. I am so unwell. Of all the places to see the hysteria that I've experienced over the years, it had to be me reading Kiwifarms on a whim. And as I glossed over everything, my fucking word. I've been unhinged for quite a few years. Worse and worse as the years went by. Only now is it all dawning on me by example.

I'm fucking insane. I am literally fucking insane. I'm frankly surprised I hadn't been even mentioned there by now. All the ranting and raving over the years. My mental health has gone unchecked for so long. It's all fallen to pieces, and I couldn't even realize. Not that I'd listen, mind, but holy fuck. It's gotten to the point where I've been breaking down weekly at best. All it took was a little bit of perspective from a bunch of...
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Hey again, my lovelies! So recently I had commissioned someone from FurAffinity for a vore story, and I'm totally in love with the end result. The tale stars Nazreen in a modern setting, and features oral vore, if interested. I don't wanna pull favorites and views away from his work as it really is stellar, so I'm linking the story page here: www.furaffinity.net/view/34637096/

I just want to be cute. I take every opportunity to avoid transition but in the end? I just wanna be cute. I can't refuse myself forever, and I'm thankful for those who like me and what I do. I hate how slow this is going, but I can't just give up. I have every right to be comfortable in my own skin, and I have so many people to thank for sticking by me and enjoying my self-expression.

Sometime tonight or tomorrow, going to return what I think are my best bits of recent artwork to my FurAffinity page. Thankfully I have stuff still on here and Weasyl to do so.

I'm sorry. I don't mean to concern anyone who pays attention to my constant outbursts. To keep it brief this time: no, I'm not actually transgender. Really. I just kept trying to tell myself that, and believed it whole-heartedly for years. Anything to avoid accepting my true self, which I hate. I've always been my own worst advocate and my own nemesis. I was taught in middle school, by the worst instance of bullying I've ever had, to hate myself.

Except there was never anything wrong with me: it was just someone being a prick. But as my depression truly developed and worsened over time by more and more "tiny deaths", my self-image was demonized worse and worse. And eventually the self-loathing grew strong enough that I looked for any way to not be Joseph, this...
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