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Another day in the commonwealth

Permanent Linkby doomfister on Mon Sep 23, 2019 1:23 pm

So today was a big one, I started a new career path, and have begun induction for said role, which will leave this coming week frantic and filled with trials and tribulations as I am kitted out in enough PPE to salvage a space hulk. Its always a bit of a rush, meeting new people, hearing metal sing, and for a moment seeing the spark of creation in cycling over as a thousand hands build something that is but a flash of humanity's will, that forever would be a dream if not for the graft of labour's sweat it is made real. It is humbling, but as I said to the induction team, "I am just happy to be here," and like with everything I aim to work hard and try my best.

I can hear the concerns now, " doom you majestic wordsmith, is this going to affect your story output," and I would like to say no it should not. I fully intend to continue working on commissions and my own projects in my free time, so if you're in the queue have no fear my grotty fingers will caress this keyboard and manifest the deviancy you require, it's just going to be a bit slow rolling at times depending on workload. Thankfully I set up my commission system with this as a possible contingency, and as payment is only when I start each individual project there is no pressure of a bonfire of comms that could possibly stress out my crooked mind.

me dad told me when I was a wee sprog that destiny is an excuse, and I continue to believe that is true. my roll has never been smooth, my ambitions have been shattered on multiple occasions, my body betrayed me, my first boss fired me on bs charges because in doing a good job I was proving their dereliction of duty, and then I spent a year on the dole scrounging unfit to sell pencils from a cup on the crossroads. People always seem surprised that in spite of this I am always looking on the bright side, now it might seem disillusioned, but in my book, the world cannot see me sad. Life is harsh, it is a knife that twists, but pain is just a part of living, instead of focusing on the dark, well sometimes it is better to look to the light, the beauty, as life has no meaning other then the meaning we carve out of it for ourselves, because of this if you get target fixated on the bad well that is all you will ever see, and in that the malaise of nihilism and depression will flood your mind like gods black tea.

Because of this, I reject the reality of my situation and always will, my fate if the ties that bind are to believed was to live off benefits until I died, but I chose something different and always will strive to do so. If someone is having a bad day and then they look over and see my crippled arse slugging away as I made my weakness my armor, well in a childish way I feel it gives people hope. a hope that they can dig themselves out of whatever quagmire they have stumbled into, and I am always willing to help people, but in the end, no one can help you if you don't help yourself.

I tried that once, existing, and I will tell you with not a cloud of doubt in my mind that, existing is misery, but if one chooses to live, well that is when problems start to look small as you realize what really matters. This is just me venting what's sloshing around in my head right now after concluding my first day chuffed as a portly box crab, and me letting you guys no my change in situation is not going to affect your commissioned works if you're currently in my waiting list :)

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Re: Another day in the commonwealth

Permanent Linkby captamis on Mon Sep 23, 2019 2:31 pm

awesoem to hear man , glad to ehar your sucess
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Re: Another day in the commonwealth

Permanent Linkby doomfister on Tue Sep 24, 2019 10:45 am

captamis wrote:awesoem to hear man , glad to ehar your sucess


aye, its looking on the up and up over in came doomfister :)
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