SecretBaboon wrote:A likely contributor also is the fact that I grew up in a sexually oppressive religion (what am I kidding, it's a cult), and while I no longer am affiliated with it, years of conditioning and harmful teachings don't just disappear.
That's your answer right there. It's not normal, but it's also not your fault. There's no need to be ashamed of it. As long as you keep it to yourself and others that know what they're getting themselves into like vore or fetish websites or chat rooms.
I've been sexually oppressed for different reasons, the main ones being bullying which led to social anxiety, being overweight and unhealthy, and what I was taught from the education and the media.
Fetishes or other abnormal sexual behaviors develop from natural sexual urges being warped by sexual oppression or trauma. An example of this are prisoners that used to be straight, but no longer are due to sexual oppression. While fetishes aren't normal, a lot of people still have them so you aren't alone.
Today, I just indulge and know that it's fine as long as I keep it to myself. I have literally no other available outlet so what else am I supposed to do? If anyone wants to judge me for it, they can either genuinely help me have a normal life or fuck right off because finger pointing and judging do no good.
acex007 wrote:EmilyNidhoggr wrote:acex007 wrote:Oh for sure told my GF of 4+ years was into they ghosted me for 5 days then came back, turns out they ran away from home, and told me I was disgusting. We talked for a few weeks I deleted my account here as well as any vore site I was on and my entire stash to prove I loved them more than I enjoyed this. We tried to make it work for a bit then they blocked my number and every form of online contact we had. 3 years later I get a message that they killed themselves after they blocked me from one of their friends. Pretty much forced myself to believe I was the reason they did that and all because I had a fetish.
Holy shit.
I mean I can see how the two events are connected, but not in that way, damn.
Someone who can't forgive other people's repellent qualities is less likely to survive having to confront their own. It's the same impulse, wiping another person out of your life because of one gross part, or wiping yourself out because of one gross part.
Blame yourself if you like, but it's not on you to be pure for the sake of the purity-obsessed. It's a tragedy, but it sounds like you weren't the catalyst, just a close spectator.
That's some heavy shame though. Fuck.
Yeah been carrying that weight since 2010 and still no better. Thanks for the kind words though.
I'm no expert, but if it helps it sounds like some underlying issue on her end. Suicide doesn't just happen at the flip of a switch. She was like an emotional dam ready to burst. Even if she never met you she would have burst at some point and the result would have been the same.
I know someone that was married to a pedophile for 15 years. It's emotionally scarred her and it shows, but she never went that far. A four year relationship with a harmless fetish like this is nothing compared to that.