So...where to start?
Some of you might have noticed, but I've been all but gone for a good two years. Outside a little lurking here and there I have dropped out of the community and site entirely. In essence I got into a very negative relationship. Privacy became a rare luxury and there was such an issue with trust I couldn't talk online to anyone else online when in their company, and when apart had to stay in near constant IM contact. Added to that a constant stream of arguments and half-breakups meant that we never reached a comfortable or stable enough point where I could be open about things like fetishes, or even just the freedom to draw or write in spare time.
The result of this was losing contact with almost all of my social circle and friends, people I'd known from school as well as people I had known on here for years and been incredibly close with, all without any warning whatsoever; because the relationship always seemed to be on the brink of ending, my mindset was always "It's fine, I'll just get back in touch with them next week...next week...next week" and then two years are gone and it's been so long since I actually spoke to them it's harder to reintroduce yourself than to just keep on being silent
Now the relationship that should have been over 18 months ago is finally ended, and I can get back to being me and doing Soline things....and trying to work up the courage to contact old friends.
I've got a few doodles drawn up over the past few years that need uploading too, so look forward to a little more vore in our happy little portal
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Not really sure how to end this blog, I guess just a warning to anyone else who might be in a similar situation. Don't hold out and cling to a relationship you know is bad and not working just because you like the person, or you hope it'll get better. You're both worth a more than miserable free time working at something you're not really happy with. Relationships are work, but they shouldn't be constant work for no gain. And you should never let it quash friendships and social lives, because when the relationship falls down, you'll discover those friends have moved on in the time you've been trapped.
Posted by threk 5 years ago Report
Sorry you got stuck in a toxic relationship like that, they nearly always look different from the inside than from and outside viewer's point of view, so they can be hard to see for what they are until they're over.
Still, glad to have you back
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Posted by onyxlion 5 years ago Report
I know the feeling... but like me and my long-lost companions... I am sure you'll be surprised to find that they're just happy you're okay, happy that things are looking up. Most of all, happy that you're talking to them again. Being a friend and caring for someone means more than fair weather friendship.
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Posted by Bright 5 years ago Report
Glad to hear you got out of that. Welcome back to the portal.
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Posted by Gelus 5 years ago Report
Sorry to hear you had to deal with that, it's good that it's over though. Now you can be true to yourself. Welcome back, big kitty.
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Posted by KlinKitty 5 years ago Report
Nice to see you back, and good to hear you got out of a toxic relationship (although, of course, it's unfortunate that the relationship was toxic to begin with).
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Posted by Kila 5 years ago Report
Glad to see you return, welcome back. :3
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Posted by MagnumDong 5 years ago Report
Sucks that you had to deal with that but we're happy to have you back! Hope to see you writing again soon!
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Posted by Zolatul 5 years ago Report
My best wishes go out to you on recovering from the emotional pain of that relationship, Soline. Just glad you got out of it before it took a darker turn.
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Posted by bubbalubber 5 years ago Report
*offers 1 million hugs* its great to have you back, ngl i missed you <3
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Posted by KrasnyiKoiot 5 years ago Report
Welcome back, yo! Glad things are still a'goin'.
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Posted by knux 5 years ago Report
hey its great ta have you back even if its only for a short time
as for whoever fucked you over like that I can honestly say I recently went through a similar situation for 3 of my best friends all 3 had been my friends since like high school and they all as much as abandoned me out of the blue with no warning so I can say with authority your on the right path fuck em you don't need em or there BS
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Posted by PocketJabari 5 years ago Report
welcome back Soline its great to see you again I hope things go well as youmake your way back into the community ^^
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Posted by darc22005 5 years ago Report
Thats rough, but welcome back Soline. Im glad to hear you are out of that, hope you get back into things online, reconnect with folk
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Posted by Dreyalgia 5 years ago Report
Happy that you're alright at least, worried about you, and glad you are in a better state. Feel free to reach out anytime you wish, whenever you wish. I'll always be your friend, now and forever~
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Posted by SpaceHump 5 years ago Report
There's always new friends to make as well.
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Posted by Mech__Warrior 5 years ago Report
I wouldn't say you've been forgotten by your friends but it wouldn't hurt to say hello. I'm sure they've missed you, Lord knows I have.
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Posted by Aelina 5 years ago Report
Hooh! I'm a little late here but I'm happy to see you around again! Hope we can talk more again later, you were fun to be around.
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Posted by Jones 5 years ago Report
Sorry you had to go through all of that, but glad you got through, and that you're back!!
In honor of Incredibles 2, I went back and re-read your ElastiGirl/Mirage AV story. Still one of my favorites after all this time!!!
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Posted by martyr 5 years ago Report
Glad to see you back and posting stuff, and REALLY glad to hear you got out of that situation! I hope it leads to reconnecting with older, better relationships, and making friends again. ^_^
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Posted by OERN 5 years ago Report
I've always seen you as a pillar of the community here, even when I was lurking almost a decade ago. It''s good to see you back.
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Posted by OERN 5 years ago Report
I've always seen you as a pillar of the community here, even when I was lurking almost a decade ago. It''s good to see you back.
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