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Oh Hey, Some Good News Actually ( /end breakdown ) Posted 4 weeks ago
My work stays. Hooray!

But I feel as though I need an actual, I'm-going-to-stick-to-it-break. I have been rather unpredictable, incredibly whiny, and spitefully self-destructive lately. Truth be told, it has kind of been massively building for the past few years - major depression, unmanageable anxiety, and recommendation into seeing if I have borderline personality disorder.

Even if I don't, I've been unfairly taking my anxieties and rage out on the community, and I'm sorry for that. You all definitely deserve a break from the many negative sides of me.

So I'm going radio silent with the intent to come back later, having hopefully improved myself mentally, emotionally, and medically. As sloppy as it was, quitting social media has definitely been a...
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Beginning of the End? Posted 1 month ago
I deleted the IrateLiterate accounts on Twitter and Tumblr.

No more of them there. They were doing pitiful in terms of activity and attention and it's only a matter of time until that stretches to this account as well.
On IrateLiterate in 2020 (HIATUS) Posted 1 month ago
Oh hey, the blog feature's working again. Cool.

Unfortunately, IrateLiterate won't really be working again, at least not for a while. I'm going on a proper, actually announced to the world hiatus from posting. A lot of the joy of posting this kind of work in this name isn't really making me happy.

I'll always be working on art. For now, I've just been keeping it private and I've been happier and more confident in it. Part of the reason why I started posting in the first place was because I was young and optimistic and I had always viewed this scene as a place where I could fit in and maybe make a name for myself. All these years later and neither of those two things have really happened. I've pretty much dropped to be a nobody here, and there are a lot of artists...
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Might Be Leaving, Maybe? Posted 2 months ago
Have I lost passion in working on art? No.

Have I lost passion in posting art I do online? Yes.

I just haven't been happy in so long, I've been irrelevant and forgettable and past what I could charitably call my "prime" for even longer. Maybe it's a sign I should just delete my stuff and leave. I feel so disconnected from the community that it just makes me wonder why I'm still forcing myself to try and stay, in the hopes that I might fit in somewhere?
Diagnosis Posted 8 months ago
I've been diagnosed with moderate cubital tunnel syndrome.

For now, I'm to deal with a steroid, anti-inflammatories, wearing a brace, and physical therapy.

And if all that fails, then corrective surgery.
Good and Bad News Posted 10 months ago
So, I'm back on my standard anxiety meds. My mood is pretty level and I've had good bursts of creativity, which is a nice relief after months of ups and downs. It's nice to feel like I'm properly back. I've been experimenting with new concepts, both in and outside of vore.

On the other hand, chronic issues have acted up and have prevented me from working on art properly. Arm and elbow pain, hand numbness, it's nearly impossible to drive, play instruments, or work on art lately. I can doodle relatively pain-free and that's about it - hence why I've been uploading some work backlog as opposed to working on new things. I've been prescribed meds to deal with probable ulnar nerve entrapment, with plans for visiting specialists and having nerve mapping done if I don't respond to the...
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Hiatus Update Posted 1 year ago
So it's been nearly a month of my "somewhat" hiatus, and how has it been?

Not really good, there haven't been any improvements. Not emotionally and certainly not art-wise, which I feel I've been on a steady decline for years now. It feels like for all I've tried to practice, I've barely improved at all when others have started off worse and improved so much more in a shorter amount of time. My numbers have just been going down with Tumblr imploding, Twitter being a failure to launch (for me), and my gallery here stagnating.

I'm unhappy if I'm consistently working on art to post, because I burn out. I'm unhappy if I'm taking a break from posting art, because every second to post and try and remain relevant is going by unused.

"But Irate,...
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Indefinite Hiatus... Again. Posted 1 year ago
Apart from some owed work and maybe collaborating with someone else, I’m taking a hiatus from posting. Mental health’s deteriorated to a very poor state right now and I don’t feel like I should be a part of this community anymore, like I’ve just kind of always existed on the fringes and I should just leave now.

Consider this hiatus a trial run.
Potential Ideas Doc Posted 1 year ago
So a problem I have is that I come up with ideas too quickly to do anything with and then forget. In an effort to fix this somewhat, I’ve started a Google Doc that I add ideas to as they come to me. It’s available for viewing here:

tinyurl.com/y9gg9u7a

Feel free to message me if you’re curious about any of the ideas - I’m usually reachable via here or Discord.
Indefinite Hiatus Posted 1 year ago
Been mentally ill and struggling for what feels like forever now.

I'm sorry, but I'm just giving up for now.