Hello everyone, I know it's been a long time... The motivation was gone for months, and there were many reasons behind that. Let's say that 2016 has been pretty horrible since since this summer.

First, my grandmother died, but it was a bit expected, since she was rather old and with advanced Alzheimer. It was probably harder for the family than it was for her, in the end.
Then, mid-October, seasonal depression, which I quite well handled on a conscious level... except that the subconscious can be a b**ch sometimes. Got no less than 3 sickness in a row due to a weakened mood, including the flu, and I was almost incapable of eating anything. Good side: I lost 10 kilos in 2 months XD
I'll skip the minor problems (which I consider minor in comparison to the rest), car broke, financial issues, threatened to be fired soon for something I'm not even responsible for,... 2016 really was an absolute charm…

And finally, in the beginning of December, my nephew fell from a 10th floor and obviously died brutally. He was just 6 months younger than me, had 2 children (one being born 1 week before the accident), and a sister who's still pregnant.
Sadness, anger, worries, I'm used to the feel of losing someone. I've unfortunately experienced more losses than one could think, so in a way... I'm less confused with death than I am with love. But this time, it was a bit of an overload to me.

I felt like I died a little this winter. I didn't know how to make people around me notice that I was in distress and in these cases, loneliness is the worst. Fortunately, I still got some help, enough at least to stand up once again.^^ Like I heard recently, everything ends, and that’s always sad. But then everything begins again too, and that is always happy. Focusing on the present, and aim for the small victories, that’s the way to go!


About my writing in general, I apologize for the long wait between chapters, but that’s the rhythm life imposes to me. I work really intensely, and I admittedly need rest when I come back home. And it is not rare that weekends become synonyms of time with friends, when I’m not at work. I still intend to work on this project as well, I can’t bear leaving this unfinished. But for my health, moral and physical, it is important for me to work at my rhythm, without the stress of a deadline. I feel like the pleasure of writing will remain something I enjoy as long as I can get to it when in the mood.

On this chapter in particular, it actually took me a lot longer to edit/proofread it than it took to write. Such scenes are new for me, and the confrontation occurring at one of the critical chapters didn’t help. Cumulated difficulties >< I hope I managed to create somewhat of an ambiance through Amaria’s eyes, but I’ll let you tell me :)

Enjoy your reading!

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