All the best from me and all my RP characters for the new year everyone ^^

Man how many more games can i get? i think if i melted all the games and cases i own to melted plastic... i could build a hotel for lego men... in full size!! (Because every lego man needs a home) i counted all the games i had this morning because i got bored, yaknow how many i had? way over one hundred... i actully stopped counting once i reached the hundred barrier nd there was a lot more.

I could name them all in this random epic list that would probably make my arms fall off with all the typing.... but i can't be bothered ;P

I picked up fear and fear files today for the 360, and as usual i managed to mess it up by running at this random dude with a gun.... i wanted that gun....

So i ran at him... somehow.. and did a dive kick when he...
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I heal fast for a person who used to take everything to heart. I feel all the better now, i'm glad love is still burning and My dearly beloved Mark is still with me.

Not much to right to be honest... hmmm *thinks* guess i can just say all is good in the world for me and i'm breaking through anything hard.

Peace ^^

~Z

I'm the type of person to want to sit there and see what little family i have left open there christmas presents. Unfortunatly they don't understand just how much i like this and instead opened them while i was alseep, when i woke up nobody was in the house and i opened mine alone....

I can't quite explain just how heart wreaked i am right now, i feel like i've done something wrong and that they did it to spite me... my question is why, why would they do something like this knowing full well iwanted to see there reaction when it happened...

It was like saying "fuck you mike your in bed you miss it..." whatever happened to waking me up!? i don't care about sleep... i just wanted to... jesus christ i feel like a moaning little bitch.... it just dug deep thats...
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Lately i've had around four or five arguments with people who were once friends in which all i did was make things worse.

Well they started off as the person talking to me about problems, and whenever they mentioned suicide i tried to stop them as anyone would, making it worse and ultimatly leading to them taking there anger out on me... i mean, what kind of friend would go against me like that? ... it just really got to me.

Imagin an argument were no matter what you do to help, all it does is make things worse, then when you realise your not helping you say sorry and the person continues to barage you with hurtful comments. then times it by four or five...

It's scared me, now everytime someone is upset i get scared and say that i can't help,...
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Aww you saw this coming didn't ya.... wait... who am i talking too O.O

Christmas, the only time the english have a good reason to eat a turky, i think over the years of life, Christmas has just diverted in it's effect, when i was young i remember getting thousands of action figures and big dragons... heh... now i sound like an old git XD but it's just that as you get older theres less chances that you can exspress your immagination (the exact reason i do RP) so when it comes to chrismas theres less things to get.

When it came to christmas i looked forward to presents all over the couches and stuff, but now it's like a few under the chrismas tree, not much left to get... and loved ones get distant aswell, wierd chrismas's.

were i live christmas...
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This is going to sound very bitchy and pathetic but lately i've been getting very down when someone puts up this emote >_>

It just hits me deep for some reason, like i've pissed someone off entirly and now they hate me. Like i said it sounds silly but it's just something that gets to me. for some wierd Reason o.o

Anyway thanks to my friends, dad and awesome BF i'm back on top and happy as ever ^^ it's just wierd that a certain emote gets to me so much yaknow.

So yeah... remember, this emote >_> sorry i had to mention this it's just strange and i'd rather not sink into a stange depression because of it.

anywho

Peace out people ^^

~Z

Lately i have been getting ahead of myself, a bit to much you see, paranoia at it's all time high.

My mind, gut feeling and heart are 3 seperate things, while my mind and gutfeeling push against me my heart is the only thing keeping me striving foward. Everything is so good for me in the world yet... i just feel so wierd, my heart tells me, calm down, everything is going to fast and your getting ahead of yourself, my mind and gut say...... end it all... i don't know whats the matter with me, good thing is my heart is the only thing i listen to.

I have my Boyfriend Mark and friends to thank for support, without mark i think i would be a mess with a shattered mind. everytime i fall into darkness he pulls me back into light, yet my gut and mind strive against...
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No the title is not sarcastic XD I am actully verry happy ^^

and have been...

for ages... no sadness WOO!!


anywho... Hello to whoever reads this hope you all feel as good as i do ^^ lifes just freaking perfect, nothing seems to be going wrong at all it's so awesome XD jesus this sounds so sarcastic lmao....

okay then i feel like reviewing something so i sall review tomb raider underworld!!! muaahahaha.

First of all i'm extremely impressed with the graphics, it offers real life realism although because of it the game is rather short, a downer on it too is there is no croft manor, obviosly because it got blown to hell XD this is an unfortunate insident and the fact that they couldent have it in gives the game...
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No really lol

Lately i been having dreams that arn't really dreams, there more like reality, basically i mean that there completely real and everything is like actual life... Except death or i wouldent be writing this hehehe, luckily there vore dreams *Woops* So i thougt to myself "blog it on the website and maybe i'll find others who have the same hmm... Gift?" cos lets be honest. blogs are supposed to be about us and i couldent think of much else except this to go on my first blog ever XD

To be honest i see it as a gift rather then a curse, that what my mates call nightmares to me are like, the best part of my night. I know that many have vore dreams but, who else has vore... Experiances?? i guess i call them that because "dreams" are a vision of the...
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