first I drink water

this post will be something vent apart from an explanation of what has been happening to me in the past year, i suggest you sit well.



it is well known that I have gone through several moves over the years, several to different houses in the same city and another move to another state to finish my studies and have easier access to health care. I was asked to move again to another state to take care of an aunt's house, those months I have been quite stable, I was doing the commissions in order and I didn't feel the need to medicate myself or attend therapies (I suffer from severe depression for many years already) everything was fine after february 2023, for some reason everything went to hell, my computer got damaged, commissions and projects were delayed to a great extent and then, the death of my cat which affected me too much, this and more were the factors which made me fall back in a list of endless commissions and even, commissions from that date that I am just finishing. but it is not only that, no no. after that my aunt came to the house, everything was fine, an agreement was made in which I helped to pay a certain amount of money for utilities and food, but slowly the coexistence became more toxic and horrible, receiving both negative comments for my appearance to the smallest detail of how I did things calling me a weak person or a crybaby because simply depression is not a disease, it is stupidity. because of these constant comments I became sick again, both physically and psychologically, this house that I appreciated so much had become a madhouse, in fact I do not remember almost nothing of last year, only the times in which I left my house (which were very few) I locked myself in my room again, I did not want to be with anyone, I did not want to talk to anyone, many times I just wanted the earth to swallow me up, something that my brother noticed a lot, he tried to talk to my aunt, but instead of understanding me, she only increased the amount of money we had to pay now, it got to a certain point that we could no longer leave anything outside our room because she only rented us a room, she did not rent us part of the sofa, or part of the table or part of the patio, only the room (we never talked about renting anything, we only agreed to collaborate with what she needed).
with this logic, one day she took all our things (we had a room to store things, the things were packed or in suitcases) she threw the things to the door and threatened us that if we did not find a place to store the things we should leave (when she herself said that we could store the things in that room), the comments became more aggressive, there was no time that she saw me and insulted me, the level was so high that at one point, she prohibited us to cook in the house.
this worsened my health even more, since it forced me to eat only once a day and those were the times I ate with my brother when he came home from work. for months we were tired of the contempt and abuse, until, this week we finally got approved to rent a house in the same city, after so much effort and rejection, we got a house which we will be resting soon. For my part, I spent the whole month of December delivering commissions in a row, since I woke up until I couldn't sleep anymore, sleeping 5 hours a day, but finally I can say that I made it and I could finish the commissions that had been waiting for more than 6 months.

but moving to a new place with nothing but a computer and a couple of shirts, is always complicated, for that reason I decided to open the mega package of color sketches of 940 usd, so I could concentrate fully on the commissions and pay the basics, but it is something that is not enough since we have practically nothing.

that's why I decided to reopen my Ko-fi.
There are some basic needs that would be of great help to me. If anyone has the possibility and the desire to collaborate, I would be grateful for any donation you can offer.
in the same way a channel will be created on my server showing in time the purchases of the new home, the storage process, the moving and the new home.
every penny of these donations will go entirely to the house and nothing else.
I deeply appreciate the understanding and love you have always shared with me over time. Each one of you has left an indelible mark on my heart.

Thank you for taking the time to read these words and for considering supporting me in this new chapter of my life. Your generosity means the world to me, and I am eternally grateful to have such wonderful people in my life.
Thanks to you, I can stand up straight and say that I am happy, happy to be here one more day and share with you, you are my world.
Thank you so much <3 <3

https://ko-fi.com/ophiu
https://ko-fi.com/ophiu

here you will be able to enter my server and see this process and join me
https://discord.gg/TVRGAP5UjJ
https://discord.gg/TVRGAP5UjJ

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