I gave my Dad nothing for Father's Day yet he's happy with what he has as am I.

I've been on Eka's, of course, I've looked around Eka's, now I want to leave Eka's, but I can't.

Why the hell can't I leave Eka's?

I've made many attempts to try it, a lot of people know this, hell, I'd be willing to pay to sever myself from Eka's in any way that I am, I can't leave Eka's Portal dammit, I'm addicted to it somehow.

I guess I lied to myself about my broken arm being the reason why I stayed on a computer for 6 weeks straight, now I'm addicted and want to go back outside, outside was funner yet I can't fucking do it, I'm wondering why the hell not, I know I've severed stronger connections, such as WoW, I actually quit WoW pretty easily and I was very addicted, I broke up quite a few times, I've never let a friend go willingly though, that...
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I hate death. I hate having to be restricted by death or unrestricted. I hate having to die someday. I hate having to be forced to think about others dying.

What I (I do feel scared of doing crazy stuff but my nerve far surpasses my fear of anything) don't understand is why people are scared to scream, scared to punch someone that's a dick, scared to say something funny to their teacher, etc, stuff that you can get disrespected, respected, hated, or loved at in the slightest, like why should I feel the fear to go to the gas station every day which I do and scream "Bob Linkin' happy!"? I can't get in trouble, the best somebody will do or even attempt to do is spare a glance at me, laugh, or call me crazy, there is nothing holding you back, not...
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Now that I look back at my young childhood something quite funny to me comes to mind, I was quite the kid that was interested into creatures like lizzards, mosquitoes, butterflies, cockroaches, snails, and etc, I'd torture them intending to just play around and have fun with them, I'm a murderer now that I think about it, everyone is, we all kill daily, hell, pulling out a weed, walking and stepping on ants and such, killing germs even when we talk, bite, everything. Anyways, what I want to talk about is something I still feel but have fought or shielded my heart against.

I USED to be a very kind person, helping others when I could and such, nowadays and for the past years I've been helping myself and friends mostly, not caring for others anymore like I used to just because I...
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Things in the past: If it's attacking me and hurting me I'll be fighting it off, trying to say sorry or making myself believe it wasn't my fault.

Things in the present: Slow down a bit, I want to savor the moment.

Things in the future: Quite interesting, I do not know if I believe in fate or destiny, something bound to happen no matter what I do, I do not know if my future is changed by every movement I make and every word I say but I do know I look forward with a wide grin at MY future.

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Goals
Things I plan to do in the near future:
Apologize to a few certain...
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I believe I've found the reason why so many people despise rping and why most of those people are so brilliant.

In rping, very much unlike life, you have no fear of doing pretty much anything and can be/do anything but again, unlike life, when rping with others you are stuck as an equal. I mean, I've had many rp fights, most in which I win because I don't favor losing, I am indeed very competitive and am very good at everything I like and do, I am not bragging, perhaps it's because I only like and do what I'm good at but that's besides the point. As BaX in many rps, I've been forced to play on equal grounds with people who are like me in wanting to win, meaning that a war will be waging between us and neither can go on top because of the simple thing called "God...
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About UFO's.

I have no idea whether UFO's exist or not and think that anybody who says they absolutely, positively exist is somewhat wrong, I mean it's POSSIBLE, anythings possible so I never make presumptions unless I have some proof that something might be real. People who say they aren't real are somewhat wrong too, they probably don't exist but then again when you go in the past, a man said that were going to make metal fly and everyone called him crazy, I won't say it will happen or won't happen because both are weighed almost equally right now in the chance that there is and isn't.

I do believe there are people or aliens who have lived before us and surpassed or equaled our accomplishments in technology, what insistently amazes me and is actually real is...
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Few of you might understand the question itself and of that few even fewer will understand the reason why I ask, the reason will not be said just because you will not understand the reason unless you already understand it.

The main question is... "What is Justice?"

If I were to kill a man who killed my brother that I hated would my actions be justified..?

Now for the specific question...

If a man, more of a god were to arise and say, "Anyone who challenges my rule will be killed, they are evil" now, for the ones who say, 'That's obvious" saying "Anyone who challenges my rule will be killed, they are evil" is the same thing as saying all evil will be terminated if it shows itself, the man or rather god...
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Just something to chew on if you believe in any one religion.
I don't believe their is a god, at least not the kind of god the Christian's and Catholics believe in, I really don't believe in much right now and probably never will. But just a thought, what if their is a god but their is no punishment, you are fully free to do as you wish until you die, then the god just puts your soul back in to some infant. This god would be called Nature, Nature just is a stupid not really living thing that just strives for a perfect organism. It creates all these things and keeps improving them, like monkeys that turned into strong gorillas then smart humans, nature just keeps making something better for survival and strives for perfection, I doubt someone can be perfect in all ways so Nature just...
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