I'll start with this is the reason I'm probably going to quit Eka's.


If your curiosity isn't hooked already by my opening sentence then you should start thinking about how YOU think about Eka's. Some of you think it's just a place to vent, others think it's a escape from life, still others believe it's just a form of fun meant to waste time when you have nothing else to do with the time that passes by, and yet, STILL, others think it's just a pleasure machine meant to harvest all your lust and assist you in your ferocious masturbating session.

I mainly believe Eka's a escape from life and the people that couldn't possibly understand me. I was and still am sad to a point that I'm so different (proud to the end, of my difference that is) from others to the...
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I mean, wow...
Let me clarify.

In the span of an hour something weird happened.
I was in a bored mood, not wanting to do anything but sit like a lazy jackass in my chair staring at the ceiling, which I actually did for literally thirty minutes. During those thirty dully minutes I thought of a few things. I thought of going on the vore chatrooms, I was too scared (shy, I guess) of going there. I thought of going to a friends house I usually go to on the weekends, I was too scared (shy, I guess). Then I thought of paying my new roommate for the pizza she bought us yesterday, and again, I was too scared (shy, I guess) of doing so. This is VERY unlike me, usually I just do something stupid and arrogant at the first thought of it and I'm damn right proud of that. Today,...
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"Virginia Woolf prescribed a room of one's own for women writers. Karen Armstrong finds that it's more like a lifetime on your own

I sometimes smile wryly when I hear myself described as an "ex-nun". It is true that I no longer observe the vows of poverty, chastity and obedience that governed my seven years in a Roman Catholic convent during the 1960s. I am no longer poor, and am certainly not obedient. But I have never married, I continue to live alone, pass my days in a silence that would not disgrace the strictest cloister, and spend my life writing, thinking and talking about God and spirituality.

Being solitary holds no terrors for me. Unless one relishes long hours alone, it is probably impossible to be a writer. Somebody once called me a...
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I'll admit it, I've been somewhat depressed as of late, it's a on and off thing, I can deal with it.

I have a good friend on WC3 that goes by the name of Stock, I asked him about life since he's always so open to his buds which is made up of like four people. Yeah, we had a little conversation, I didn't argue much because I wasn't in the mood to argue, I more of asked questions and observed his opinion. For once, I didn't criticize it, I totally understand it.

Note: I broke it off from the main thing, basically just want you to catch the drift of what I'm asking you.
Here's the conversation...

"It's all just a cruel joke."S
"Do you really think that?"R
"Yes."S
"Elaborate."R
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I've had a good amount of people PMing me about why I place my signature on certain things. I've either ignored or raged at these people.

This is because I have been in a dark mood lately. Yes, I know, it doesn't seem like it. Well, unlike others I know (--->John) I deal with my own emotions.

Anyways, if your one of these people, I have given you a SECOND CHHHAAAANNNCCCEEE because, well, I just had a mental fight with myself and have come to the conclusion that this was a VERY stupid reason to ignore or hate somebody for.

My signature labels certain things I say and like mine. If I like something I say, very much believe in it, or think it shows a certain part of who I am (Or all to the West), then I put my signature on...
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Yeah, so I looked back at my post today and am surprised by the amount of non-hate I have in them... that's very unlike me, ._.

Then again... I guess it's because I'm playing around a smart community, everyone is hiding their feelings in the clans around it, .

I need to play more Metastasis... My coolness is all gone...

Yeah, so, I'm thinking.

I just read Quicksilver' blogs, a particular one got me thinking about love.

I'll begin ranting about my new 'perhaps' thoughts on love.

I, before I truly really met something of a depressed mood, thought love was a simple and stupid relationship of just wanting to reproduce, a strong feeling that keeps the human race alive, nothing else. Now, I'm leaning towards the thought that love might be something that keeps our abnormally smart minds (in general) from falling into depression and other such things. I have endured a good amount of loved ones dying, and yes, some of them have really gotten to me and still do, but for the most part, I can keep my depressed emotions at bay. But just in case if my thoughts on love are true,...
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Okay... I wasn't stuck in between what side to take, I immediately helped out my screamed at buddy and dumped a girlfriend who did it. My buddy was a good friend and a guy who's called me with his problems before, he is very nerdy, and not a looker but DUDE, he's my homie, I've known him for 7 years. I can't really weigh which one I like more, it's kind of equal but as a friend my buddy has definitely tooken the field and beaten her, but I feel something for her, maybe a weak love?

Anyways, I know I'm not getting her back anytime soon and that's not what's getting to me. What's getting to me is I really don't know if I did the right thing or not, I mean what she said was truthful but also hurtful and unnecessary, they were just having a argument about the oil spill and she got...
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Yeah, I'm still alive, I am now kind of active on Eka's, not that active on Metastasis anymore...
I've been watching anime and going outside mostly.
Yeh, my life's pretty dull at the moment due to nothing being fun to really do alone (friends won't do half the idea's I say and the one's that will live miles away, lucky me...), I would like to find a public place where I can just hang out by myself and check out a good view of something, hopefully the sea since I live in Florida, but I don't want a populated place, have been looking for this whole summer, just a place to smile and think.
I'm watching Hellsing OVA series at the moment, it's pretty good, I love how #*$&ed up some of the characters are in it, it's funny though, XD.
I've never really been bored of...
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<3
I have cured my addiction to Eka's Portal with another addiction I had previously but could break free from (aka, go outside and stop playing it whenever I wanted to).

Before you read all of the below or start, please know that I'm doing this for drama, which I consider is another way of saying fun, .

First, I got to explain the main ideal of Metastasis and the groups in it, yes, Metastasis has politics, isn't it grand?
Anyways, Metastasis is a alien/mutant game, in the beginning of the game a random person is chosen to be alien and another is chosen to be mutant, there is also a android who is suppose to kill them or find their identity...
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