I've been burned out for at least 2 years now. I've been trying really hard to break out of it with help from my doctors and friends, but nothing has worked. I mentioned in my last journal that I had like 3 days where I felt normal again, like ME again. Where I could imagine and feel, have precious dopamine flow in my brain when I look upon a hotted furry, just... I felt like I used to feel years ago. It was incredible. But then it went away, and that feeling has not come back. Its been perplexing me and my doctors.

Until now.

We may have discovered the source of my mental and physical health issues: The number one reason why I've been worsening instead of improving: I have Sleep Apnea.

I was talking to my doctor about all of this, and after...
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I'm really sorry about the lack of updates. I want to keep y'all informed and up to date, but things have been kinda... rough for me lately, so it has been hard to make posts on the internet. Sorry to constantly be a bummer aaaaahhhhh >///<"

Mental Health Progress:
I've been weening off of one of my anti-depressants for the past year or so. My brain has been terribly addicted to it, and it is not working. I wanted to stop taking it immediately, but the withdraw symptoms were so severe that my doctor and I had to slow down the process to a snail's pace. Thankfully, I seem to be almost free of the drug. I've made it to the smallest dose, and I'm almost done with it forever. Unfortunately, this means that my mental health isn't being medicated, and...
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ello everyone~ So sorry for the lack of updates, I've been terribly busy. There is a lot to cover, and I'm not really sure how to organize this journal, so I guess I'll just list what has been going on:

Moved into the new apartment
As y'all probably know, I had to move because my former roommates suddenly decided to not renew our lease without telling me. Thankfully my landlord is very understanding and hooked me up with a new place across the hall. I've been spending the last month and a half moving. Its been an unending task of unpacking, sorting, downsizing, just generally going through the massive amount of crap I own. Its thanks to you, and the tremendous kindness of this community, that I was able to land on my feet and get the supplies I needed to...
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Back during October, to celebrate Halloween, I streamed "Piglet's Big Game" for the Nintendo Gamecube. It's an obscure as heck, psychological horror game for kids. I used to play it at a friend's house when I was little. Apparently, the game has exploded in popularity these past few days. Folks discovered how creepy it was, and it has gone viral. Unfortunately, this has happened before I could get my video up, and while I've been moving. It feels terrible to miss such an opportunity to get eyes on the stream. So I'm trying to get SOMETHING up so I don't completely miss my chance at having my Twitch stuff succeed. I have uploaded my full playthrough, of all 3 streams. Please give it a shot if you need something to listen to while at work, or drawing, or whatever. I will be making...
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Today is my Birthday! Yippee! I am now 29 years old. Wow~

I don't really have much to say about it other than "I feel old" and that I am very grateful for everyone's kind wishes, and for sticking with me for all this time. I love y'all very much. <3

Now! There are a lot of important announcements to make. I wanna keep you all in the loop.

I've been so busy the past month because I've been prepping to move apartments. The deal with my landlord has gone smoothly, and I am moving into a new, smaller, relatively affordable apartment this weekend. It is right down the hall from where I live now, so it won't be TOO much of an ordeal, but its still quite stressful and involved.

All of this has made it so that I've been unable to...
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This is an important update to the previous journal, which you can read here for context: https://aryion.com/g4/blog.php?id=81208

As you know, I'm going through a tremendously stressful situation where I am losing my apartment. In the previous journal, I asked for help financially to pay for the various expenses that come with moving so suddenly.

I am writing this journal because the outpouring of support has been absolutely incredible. In particular, I wanted to let everyone know of a very, VERY kind donation that... I'm still reeling from.

Someone donated a staggering $3000 to help me through this.

I've already done my due diligence to make sure things are legitimate, and that this wasn't some sort of mistake. The user who made this...
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TLDR: I am losing my apartment because my roommates decided to move out without notifying me. Thankfully, I will not be homeless, I do have a place to stay. However, I will be hit with many large expenses. I am in need of help financially. I hate asking, but if you can donate anything to help me make it through this, it would be greatly appreciated. Links are at the bottom of the journal.


The timing of recent events couldn't be worse. I was going to post about this earlier, but with the sudden and terrible passing of  spottedsqueak, I didn't feel it was appropriate.

I didn't personally know Forest, but I am very close to many who did. Seeing all my friends in absolute agony has been terrible, and I didn't want to add to that suffering with my...
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TDLR: A lot of art in my gallery will be deleted or have new/revised descriptions. I recommend you save what you are attached to if you are so inclined. Soon, I will be posting soon to other sites like Itaku as well.


THE DELETED FILES WILL BE AVAILABLE FOR DOWNLOAD ONCE I FINISH.

Hello everyone~

I just wanted to make everyone aware that I am finally going to be starting the Great Gallery Restructuring.

I recently had to replace my dying hard drive with an SSD. Doing so has provided a great opportunity for me to completely re-sort and reorganize all my files. I've been wanting to do this for years. Sense most of my files are art, I think it would be most efficient to sort both my personal files, and my public...
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It's that time again, and unfortunately, despite my efforts, I don't have anything big to show for it this year...

However, I'm not showing up empty handed. I do have 2 little things for the holiday:

Firstly, a minor, but loooong overdue change to my gallery has finally happened! My username is no longer "Vorishfoxie." It has been changed to PieMan24601, as it should be~ Thank you to Leshana for helping me do this.

I don't think I've ever publicly talked about why my username was Vorishfoxie. I don't really like to talk about the whole situation, as I'm rather ashamed of it. But... I also want to get it off my chest. There isn't some big dramatic story, its just... *sighs* I made my Eka's account when I was 16 years old. You're not...
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So I've got some really good news, and really bad news.

Let's start with the good:

Finally, after struggling to find something for almost a year, I got a job!

It happened about a week ago, but I've not said anything publicly until now because my brain just... didn't believe it was happening. I still don't, I feel like I'm going to screw something up and somehow lose it all. Anxiety disorders are fun like that... But anyway, I start on the 8th at a medical manufacturing company, where I'll be making steel implants for spine and knee surgery. It pays a very decent $18 an hour, and it comes with very good benefits. I'm so very nervous, but I'm also excited. I really want to do a good job so I can finally, FINALLY stop struggling so hard...

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