Having taken a brief 10-year break from writing, I have returned. Why? I thought of something I wanted to write about.

10 years ago I was in my 3rd year at community college. I didn't have a lot of direction and had changed majors twice.

Everything I wrote had to have some deeper meaning. I thought I had to write something that would really hook people and get them emotionally invested. People wouldn't like it if it was just random smutty vore, right?

I can say now, a good 10 years more mature, I like smutty vore. At the end of the day, I want person A to consume person B. I have a million ideas for how that could happen, but back then I thought there must be some weight to them. Why should I write some kind of deep story if that's not what I care...
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I've been desperately trying to write a new story since I haven't released one in quite some time. I have some good ideas that I really love, but the one I keep getting stuck on is hard vore. Here's the thing: I hate hard vore. Why on earth am I so caught up on writing something I find no enjoyment in???

I've double checked by scrolling through the HV section, it's not appealing at all to me. Similar things have happened before on different subjects, and I know we writers and artists complain about things like this all the time. What drives us to produce something we almost feel to be an abomination (I use that word loosely; no offense to you HV lovers out there)?

Why no, no I have not been missing for the last month and a half

But in all seriousness, my life has calmed down so I will be back writing soon ^^

So last night I may or may not have spilled water on the laptop I use for all of my stories whilst in a semi-very drunken state and watching Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles 2.... the i button keeps randomely pressing itself now and it sounds like its breathing. That's not a good sign, is it?

Hey all, this is a little off topic but I think its really important nonetheless. Please stay with me on this, you may be surprised by what you hear, and it may in turn help you or someone you know. It might even save a life.

I want to talk to you about something that you may or may not have heard of: Magcrews. You can Google it for a better definition, but they are those people that come to your home and try to sell you magazine subscriptions (assuming you live in the U.S.). Try not to lose focus as I explain, this affects a lot of young people's lives.

The general thought behind these is that they are a scam, which the generally are. The crews are hired by magazine companies to independently sell subscriptions at a really high mark-up (the mark-up depending...
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I just felt the need to say that I am in a exceedingly good mood today. Why is it relevant that I share that information, you ask? That, sir or madame, is a brilliant question and is subject to my newest rant.

I can't help but notice just how dark we all are whilst we blog. Even me, when I post something it tends to be either whining, complaining or questioning some deep moral principle. Not just here mind you, but on my Facebook as well. And my once-used MySpace. And just about any means of communication. It's all bad news.

So I felt that it might be appropriate to finally post something that was not a complaint. Nay, this might indeed be a praise! Right now, I am content. I have a stable-if-not-good job, I have friends, a wife, family and anything I could ask...
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I think I've begun to notice a correlation in the amount of work I put in to a story vs. the way its received. My findings elude me.

With all of my stories, save one, the less work I put in to it, the more feedback I get. When I try to put out some epic story that I'm psyched about for days, it seems to get forgotten. Now, I'm not just whining about a lack of comments or anything like that; I write what I enjoy and if someone else enjoys it, than so be it.

What does surprise me is the stories that I actually try to give some depth to seem to just fade away. Now, no one has specifically said they dislike my stories, and even if they did I wouldn't really mind. I just want to find what people are really looking for, though I'd prefer to write something...
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Well, I'm slowly but surely pumping out my next story. This next one is gonna be a bit different, and I'm kind of excited about it. Down side is that my brain and my fingers simply are not getting along. I'll think something along the line of "she looked around the corner, watchful of any sudden movement," and will get something to the effect of "She locked the corner, watching the sudden movements." I gotta say, I have never failed this bad at writing in my life (>_<). I should probably stop writing at 2 am and try it at a reasonable hour... nah.

I just finished up a story and uploaded it yesterday, and as I eagerly waited to see whether it would be a flop or a hit (it has 5 favs, so I'm guessing its at least "not bad"), I began to wonder why it was that I was writing these stories in the first place. I narrowed it down to three possible options:

1. I write them for my own entertainment; a way to act out my fantasies.

2. I write them to share my fantasies with everyone else. I'm happy knowing people like the same things I do.

3. I thrive on people telling me good job, and this is one way I can get that fix.



If I write solely for my own entertainment, then why bother uploading them? If I write just for to share my fantasies, then why does it bother me if no...
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Have you ever had one of those nights where you're stuck with an idea burning in your head and you have to get it in writing (or drawn for you artsy types) before you could get to sleep? Yeah, I'm having one of those moments right now.

I feel really good about my newest story (sorry, no spoilers here), and I'm on a role writing it right now. I'm just worried that if I go to bed, I'm going to lose something really big. *Sigh* Maybe when my laptop batteries run down I can convince myself that I am too tired to type in coherent sentences