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L00dPanda

Author Type: Gallery User

Registered Since: 4 years ago

Last Seen: Mar 21st, 2021

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3/24/2020

A few weeks ago I had stopped using this site due to hearing word that this site was alright with pedophilic content. To my knowledge at the time, I had not been following any problematic people/artists here. So, I had left this account to gather dust, but I did not remove my submissions, my favorites, or my follow list.

Recently, a few people have found this alternate account of mine and dug through my likes and watches. They found art I favorited that turned out to be pedophilic in nature. I had not known about these pieces being pedophilic because of a few factors:
1) I don't tend to read descriptions or tags, both on this site and on FurAffinity. So I had not known the characters were supposed to be underage.
2) Again, to my knowledge I was under the assumption I was following artists with good morals and no pedophilic kinks. I have a life outside of the internet, so I don't have a lot of time to invest myself into and learn every detail about every person I follow
3) The favorited picture they showed me to accuse me of being pedophilic/pedophilic apologetic was a school setting. These types of pictures are very gray area, because it could be consenting adults in a school, it could be college, or, yes, it can be underage. Unless I know the characters ages (which I had no idea of AT THE TIME), I tend to believe it is the first two options. Knowing now it was underage characters, I'm really upset and torn up with myself.

To top it off, the art was something I had favorited BEFORE I decided to go AWOL on this site. Which again, I decided to not touch this site again a FEW WEEKS AGO. So yes it was "recent" but after leaving this place, nothing on this site (submissions, follows, favorites) was supposed to reflect me. Both the me NOW, and the me that had no idea.
The art was also from an artist I LOVE, and yes I've followed them for a few years now, but I've NOT seen EVERY picture they've drawn. I've NOT seen every SITE they're on. So NO I did not know about some of the kinks they drew or enjoyed. Again, I have a life outside of the internet, I don't have the time to stalk people and see EVERYTHING they do. I have college to attend to. I have commissions I need to finish. I have a family I need to live with and help support from time to time. I can't be everywhere with an all-knowing mind.

So, I'm leaving this note to say that, yes, I deleted all my submissions. I deleted all my favorites. I unfollowed everyone I followed before. I don't want people to come to this profile and take things out of context that I left to dust over as a way to abandon a bad place and setting. I want to leave this and end this stupid cycle of them stalking every possible account I own to make me out as a shit person when I'm really not.

I'm just a simple girl with Anxiety, Depression, and inattentive ADHD. I'm forgetful. I second guess myself a LOT because I'm so anxious and forgetful. I'm unobservant at the worst times and it sucks when people take it out of context. I have trust issues and when I try to be protective or blunt because I want to protect myself, others take it as me being rude and attacking them. They put words in my mouth that I never said and I'm on the verge of tears typing this.

I just want to be left alone. And I just wish people would actually approach me in DMs and warn me about a shitty artist instead of letting it build up or referencing obscure chats in a server that's long dead and I've forgotten about because I have better things to worry about.

Yes I've made mistakes. I'm sorry. I'm still working on myself IM ONLY 21. But also you're stalkerish as FUCK. Stop scouring my many accounts trying to find crumbs to make me look like someone I'm not.