Chapter 11:
I got to newyork and off the plane with a small amount of my total stuff at Laguardia and didn't
know exactly what to do, I was glad to be away from david but I didn't know the first thing about New york, so I stayed at the airport for a night, then another, and another, and another, and another, eventually I got the picture that they weren't going to kick me out so I was like, cool! This is my new home for now. I watched gamegrumps, tried to get into drawing a bit agin at the food court, I din't feel as comfortable drawing vore art there as I did in the corner of a starbucks though. Sometimes I'd go to a bathroom stall to draw.
I read more mlp fanfiction including "best hell ever" which is a story I could kind of relate to at the moment, with ssi and the airport food being the only expenditure. Eventually though I was starting to get smelly and deoderant wasn't cutting it, my clothes were getting old to since they were the only thing I took with me so I took a shuttlebus out into new york, around september or october 2017. I got some supplies at a walgreens, found a gym with a cheap membership within walking distance (for showers, as I did in California) and slowly started walking outward and exploring the city. Queens at first but then I took a taxi to mannhatten and went up on a gondola that went to a little island with green grass on it in the center. On the way back it was night on the city street in Manhatten and a little rainy, I looked down a street with some street lamps on it and felt sort of melencholic. I contacted greg again over the computer using airport wifi
and we walked around with our avatars in pony town. Mine was grass ninja, his was roaming shadow. He tught me how to have sex with another pony avatar on the 18+ server even though I wasn't really interested, it seemed to make the other character happy. But then a Discord avatar showed up on the left side and just stood there, I felt kind of weird but greg wasn't complaining about it, or.. did he have the Discord avatar and he had changed to it? I don't remember. I was playing a bunch of old video games on rom and listening to a bunch of old songs in the airport while living there but also continued researching narcissistic abuse. I tried a recovery program by Scott Bassett. One of the programs required that I make a bunch of noise to emotionally release but then cops showed up and threw me in a psychward. I told them I wasn't even suicidal, they didn't listen. After being there for a few days they released me, kind of, they sent me out of that room into another room with less security to be checked out by another doctor and I was drawing a sick pony falling apart on a page I had. A person next to me talked and I listened in about how many people in this hospital in their early twenties get sick and die just from being in here. So I picked up quickly and left back for the airport. I did laundry onthe way back and saw a video of Christ being overwhelmed on the tv screen and then graffiti of The Devil outside the laundromat when I was done, I thought that was weird but everything else seemed fine so I took my clean clothes and shouldered on. My Little Pony The Movie was out. I knew I had to see it, I really identified with the song "Open Up Your Eyes" except for the part "me among the mighty". Next month I got angry at my situation again. There was a pizza shop just past security that I supposedly "wasn't allowed to go to" without a ticket but it was right freakin there past that red line. So I crossed it and ordered a large pizza, but even as I was doing so a security gaurd started yelling at me, I told him I was just ordering a pizza, I was, he didn't listen. Into another psychward I went only this time they forced me to give contact information to someone, I just told them david "dad" at the time. In the psychward though once contact had been made with him, and they were going to ship me back to Missouri, odd occurances started happening, I had a dream of Twilight walking up some stairs and falling over and into a floor of a bunch of shapr plants that slowly globulated around her and brought her between and under them. Then when I woke up and played scrabble with a patient, the random letters he drew were able to spell "web" 3 times in a row. Even he remarked, ok, that's really wierd. I told the "doctors" I wasn't going back to Missouri after that. In response, they held me for longer but eventually let me go back onto the streets of New York. I was researching more and more about narcissism, I found other youtubers who were talking about it other than Scott Bassett. greg introduced me to DWK's totally legit mlp series. I felt compelled to, with the reduced ssi money I was getting suddenly to get a job for the first time in my life, that wasn't a paper route that was practically being done for me by simona and david. Fluttershy saying "you're getting a fucking job" in response to her brother talking about his youtube and patreon convinced me. It took surprisingly less looking than I thought to find a job near me, there was an opening at a 7 eleven IN the airport. I had gotten a smart phone, I was listening to some new and positive music, I was ready... To work at an unfulfilling bottom of the dominace hierarcy job but whatever. I hadn't discovered and started watching Jordan Peterson yet. By this time it was april 2018.