So I've been waiting for about 2 weeks for Subscribestar to approve my account and my patience is pretty much gone at this point. I understand there is probably a large influx of people as well trying to get approved as well, but I plan to get started with a site ASAP. So would any of you fellow peeps know of alternatives in the meantime, especially with my inclusion of loli?

I no longer feel like absolute shit about my art anymore. I've come to terms with what I like in vore, how I like to draw, my flat colors, and my lines. It's not gone completely, but I can at least be proud of myself now, and I'm not constantly beating myself up about my work.

Something I'm thinking of doing, now that I've committed to just being more of a hobby artist instead of a full time professional illustrator.
Ya'll want to see more of him?

Still feeling useless and unnecessary in the vore art community/art world in general, but slowly pushing some stuff out.
Possibly might have new stuff soon. Working on a comic for a Japanese doujin group, but to be honest, not even that is bolstering my confidence. Still uncertain what will actually get me motivated (if anything at this point), but we'll see.
Mrishimaru

Still uncertain how I'm going to find my confidence with myself this year, but hopefully the answer arrives soon.. Since I cancelled my trip to Japan this month, I'll have to find other methods to remedy this.
I don't even think that trip would've helped me anyway, it just felt like a desperate escape than a legitimate trip to soul search for meaning. Maybe it's my current style that I'm dissatisfied with.
I dunno if I can deal with another year of this question unresolved, but I'll keep trying and slowly drawing.

On this Christmas day, I want to express how lucky I am to have fans like ya'll that follow me and support me.
You all have helped me mentally, stuck around through my mental breakdowns.
Most importantly, ya'll continue to be patient with me because you see the true worth of my art, even if I still struggle to see it myself most of the time. I'm always grateful for your continued support, and I hope 2020 will boost my confidence within myself to bring you a stronger year full of quality content.
Have a Merry Christmas, and enjoy your day!

https://paintable.cc/academy/
Seems legit, and appears to be exactly what I'm looking for.
heavily considering shelling out the money for this.

All I want is a mentor...that's all.
I literally cannot and WILL NOT survive without the extra guidance at this point going on into 2020.
If anyone knows anyone, or stumbles across someone/a good site, (any willing artists here) please lemme know..
I truthfully fear I'll just abandon art all together without the extra push, I'm already at a very, VERY bad spot mentally with this, and it's only showing signs of getting worse..

Just wanted to apologize for my recent outburst...again.
I know what's wrong deep down, and I've tried to mainly only focus on just line art and black and white pics, but I can't deny that my lack of understanding with coloring is actually legit bothering me, and at this point I lack the discipline to continue to try and learn such a complicated and frighting (to me anyway) subject on my own.
I need, NEED help with coloring. I have to improve on this for my own sake in order to feel like I'm advancing and improving, and more importantly, to have fun again.
If I have to pay for any one of ya'll or tutor to help me at this point, then so be it. I've gone as far as I can trying to do this on my own.

Coming very close to just obliterating my gallery on Eka, my confidence is so pitiful, and all of you do what I'm doing at a more consistent rate anyways, so I'm just nothing right now.
I dunno anymore, I'm so sick of my weak fucking gallery..