From May 29, 2018

Been awake 31 hours. Drove friends to the airport over the border. Worked a semi-long day, went to another friend's and watched a movie. Come home to see the front door is slightly ajar and one of my cats is missing. Can't find her anywhere.

Cats are generally independent and don't need us, yet I am still stressing the hell out. Its humid, she has a thick coat, there's ticks and coyotes in my area and she doesn't have her collar on.

I am so pissed off someone didnt properlly close the door and nervous for my cat, terrified I'll never see her again, and I'm so freaking tired!

Exhausted emotions are a dangerous cocktail.
And I work everyday this week.

I've left out food and water,...
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Journal from May 14, 2018

I recently saw one on TV and it was just not a great time for me.
My absolutely adoration for Dragons really gave me that gut wrenching feeling at the loss of one, even though its just TV.

It's like in movies when the Dog dies, and everyone has the nasty upset feeling inside them, for others its a total turn off. Like you never want to see the movie again. I've only seen "My Dog Skip" once when I was like 10 or 11 and will never watch it again.

I promptly turned off my TV and came online to be with my Dragon friends and those who are like Dragons. I needed to be close to them, their presence was needed and it was so important and special to me. I'm really grateful for the loving support I had with...
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3 weeks since my last update yet I am feeling the pull to write a new one so everyone knows I'm alive and well and what's been happening.

Quick mention, thank you to the new watchers I have earned. Your interest and support helps me strive to keep things looking good and fun and interesting so that you'll wish to stay. So thank you very much, I could not get to where I am now without each and everyone of you.

I've passed the 100k pageviews milestone! That's really awesome, looks like no one was able to send me a screenshot of what it looked like, oh well, I Missed out on seeing it too xD still, thank you to all 100,000 clicks by users and people like you who took a second of their time to look at what I am about.

Now to my life lately
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Happy March friends, fans, followers.

You're in for a read.

Past while I've been in a bit of a rut. I've been okay, though last week was hardest. I had a bout of winter blues hit me like a cement truck.

I had some self-doubts and struggles. I've talked with some very supportive friends and feel a lot better for it. I had worried bringing my "garbage" onto them would be a bad thing, turns out that my friends care far more about my well being than my garbage. It was shockingly relieving.

Then I worked for three long days so that was nice, I had early start times; 5am each day and I wouldn't get home until 8pm. I'm happy to work, thrilled even. I didn't work at all in February and I'm feeling the pinch. Winter months are...
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I'm grateful to be here, I'm thankful for my friends, you guys are part of what makes my life enjoyable.

Thank you for the birthday wishes last Sunday.
Now go eat some cake! Because it is never too late for cake.
I pair amazingly with chocolate frosting

Several things I need to get off my chest, first and foremost I am still alive and am missing so much the days when I could be here so often. That being said, my work is going on Christmas break starting the 22nd all the way through to the 8th. So I will have loads more time to be online when I'm not doing real life stuff with family or making delicious food, of course I will also be out of work for a long time and have no income.

My hope is that I'll be able to complete the stuff I owe some people and be fully open for some PWYW (Pay What You Want Commissions) when people will get their finished art from me and then pay what they feel it is worth. I'll likely need to ask for some help getting the word out because I alone don't seem to reach a large audience, or at least an...
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I know backgrounds give the subjects of my drawings a world to inhabit and bring forth in a whole deeper appreciation of the piece. It’s something I hope to work on in the future of my drawing hobbies; always dreaming of doing and being better, the issue is; dreaming is not doing.

Maybe that’s why I’m not selling commissions. My head is still in the clouds while the rest of me drowns. (ooo that sounded dark and poetic)

I always like to know people's views on Vore and Muscles.
So what are your thoughts when it comes to Vore? Please feel free to explain further if you feel like it or if your answer isn't there. Multiple Answers are allowed if you cant peg down just one.

A. Hate it and am opposed to it.
B. Meh, everyone likes their thing.
C. Curious but not interested in trying it.
D. Curious about it. Might try it.
E. Only if there is no death.
F. Love it! Gimmie ALL THE NOMS.

When it comes to Muscles:

A. The Bigger the Better! Gimmie That SWOLE.
B. Thic
C. Abs Always
D. Average Muscular Build
E. Abs on a Gut
F. Muscle with a Gut
G. No Muscles, More Guts

I've got to find some other way of dealing with onrushes of these negative bouts of energy. Yeah getting it out on a journal is fine and all, it helps venting and clearing it out of my system, then I go back and look at things the next day and I'm like: "What was I thinking?

The common thing I've seen out of similar times is I feel much better the following morning and like I've had a good rest, clearly a much needed rest. I do not think I would write that kind of stuff if I was more aware of myself in those times of negativity and tired desperation.

The best thing I can do about it I guess is to first of all sleep, and second of all to just keep vent journals to a minimum and try not to make them a regular thing. Thank goodness for people who can slap some...
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With about 90% of the people I talk to both online and in my real life, I feel like I am talking too much and people are not interested in talking with me.

When I'm having messenger or text conversations with friends or family, I've noticed that no one is messaging me as much as I am sending them.

I first started to notice it on Telegram, specifically with people who I'm interested in knowing more and wanting to be friends with. Looking at it on Skype, same situation.

Then I noticed that it also is happening with my RL Facebook Messenger and even my Text Messages on my phone with people in my offline life.

My outgoing messages are generally large, long, detailed posts that take up the right side of my messenger of choice. Incoming...
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