On mother's day I went to the hospital with life threatening pancreatitis.

I was in there for 9 days in pain, the doctors said if I had left it I would have died at home due to a brain clot.

Due to this I promised myself that I would change my lifestyle and eat better, from now on I will only eat healthy and low fat foods.

I got to drop this weight or I will die too young.

I only turned 38 on the 24th of march and this was short lived by my near death experience.

I am doing fine now and recovering at home.

Been comparing my style to others, I think my pictures are good but way more different than the other stuff here.

A lot of people put a lot of hard work into their art and try to make things as realistic and cleaned up as possible.... not me.

I noticed that the stuff I do (Even though good) Is not the same as art or an anime style, I believe that I have found out that I am not an Artist but a Cartoonist!

What's the difference? A cartoonist can't draw a magnificent work of art or make things look realistic, but we can draw characters in a certain way that makes them appealing to others in an adorable or fun way.

It's like what Hotdiggadydemon said on his youtube video once "I can't draw real life cos I am not an artist, I am a...
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So, I use a drawing screen that uses a battery pen. Damn pen died, so instead of getting a new pen am going to try and get a new Windows 11 tablet with a styles instead.

Mainly cosI want the new version of MS paint with layers and my old but still good pc can't get windows 11.

Going to be a couple of weeks though, maybe over a month. May just get the new pen, I will wait and see.

Yeah, the vore sex toy that I was working on with MrSexDoll.com is not happing, they said it had a choking hazard.

Not suffocating but choking, they said that they where going to try and find a way to fix it, but that was a while ago.

I think they just gave up on it, or never really planned on doing it. Either way the project looks dead.... what a shame.

So yeah, there is this company called MrSexDoll and I got some of their stuff before.

Their pocket pussies are a bit small for me but well made, then I got an idea.

I reached out to them today, and pitched a vore toy idea to them, basically it would be a ball with a giant pair of lips on it, it's as big as a watermelon and the inside would look like the inside of a belly or neck but as a cavity with a hole so you can breathe through it while you wear it.

I offered the idea to them for free because rather then do it for the cash, I would like to see if they are willing to give it a try.

I even said that I would draw the prototype up for them, all I would like in return is my name "Mirrormind101" on it and I would even be willing...
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So, I ended up having a growth under my drawing hand thumb.

At first, I thought it was arthritis due to my age and poor health, but it's growing too fast.

It hurts a bit when I touch it and it feels like it's stuck to the bone.

I am going to my GP when I can to see what the hell it is, as you all know I was clear of cancer... but, that was 9 months ago and my family has a history of it.

It could be nothing, but it's best to be safe then sorry. And since it's growing and on my drawing hand... you know why it has to go ASAP.

I will keep you all updated on this.

Yeah, it's happened again. I was working on a commission and it struck....

I felt sick to my stomach at the thought of doing another line and the thought of just drawing and the time it takes made me feel down and depressed a bit.

Had to stop...

The thing is, I want to draw at the same time?

Got all these ideas and pictures I want to do, but it makes me sick to my stomach when I think of all the work it will take....

It's like I just get bored and loose interest all together? I will get over it, but for now I just don't have the drive or the bother to draw anything...

I think I just need a break from it for a while, I tried to draw a monster the other day and I still felt meh and gave up then to.

Oh...
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So, we got some new "neighbours" if that is a new name for scum of the earth.

Where I live it's a square of 4 bungalows and the gardens face in on each other, it was quiet and we did not bother each other.

There was a nice old lady who I use to know and help, she either moved or died.... and then a chav-scum family moved in.

At first it was still quiet, they seemed alright until 2 weeks ago. so out the front of our bungalow is a house with an ok family.

Kid accidentally kicked his ball in our yard, nice kid so I went to get it for him.
It was 3 or 4pm, as soon as I went into my garden I had a bunch of verbal abuse from the pigs that moved in.

No reason for it, they had there door open and where standing in...
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Via request of an old friend, 3 pictures have been removed that contained an old OC of theirs.

The images will probably not be missed since it's old stuff.

Yep, got the call and I am cancer free.... damn, they take long enough.