I just found out that this person I'd been hoping for some kind of resolution and closure with has finally lost their struggle with anaplastic astrocytoma. Guess it really is time to move on.

Well now...I haven't had any good reason to be on this site, hence my absence.

Slowly but surely getting over my previous..."Pet". I say it with quotations because she never officially became mine, but I am led to believe that was a shared goal at one point. My new "Pet" has been a tremendous help and for that I thank him.

I recently got a part-time (possibly full-time soon) job at home depot. There are positives and I try to focus on those. But I must say, this has not justified any of my suffering in university. -_- I guess I'm just another statistic...one of those under-employed people.

I set up a twitch channel and have streamed a couple times. Just a steam game, Thomas was alone, so far. Someday I'd like to...
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My uncle is having a 4th get-together at his house. Literally the only other time he invited family over there was to help him and his not-wife move in. Yeah, I'm still not happy about that. Whenever we have family parties, he never cooks or cleans anything. Many times he won't even buy something to bring. He just shows up, sits, eats, talks, leaves. Once his not-wife was allowed to join, she started doing the same. We really have no interest in going to his house on this day in particular. However, since we've been complaining for years that he never has anything at his house, we kind of have to go now that he's actually having something there. My mother is launching a 30 min hike to the nearby reservoir, so we can go without spending much time at his house. x3

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No hits yet, as expected. Oh gosh, I think I was totally messed up the last time I did something like this. XD

Gonna be leaving the house in about ten minutes, which is quite unusual. I haven't woken up around this time since before I got my thyroid fixed. ^^

Yes, there is now a pretty decent chance that I will be making a "seeking" thread. Too tired to be bothered right now. Previous journal pretty much explains why. Again, I'm pessimistic about the benefit it will have, but it would be better than sitting around doing nothing.

To clarify, this IS "short and sweet".

I'm sick and tired of waiting around for my..."Pet". It has been a month now, and I feel I've been more than fair and patient. If someone can't set aside a few hours of their life for me, it's probably a safe bet that they lied about how much they care and how much they need me. That realization doesn't give me closure, dull my pain, or lessen how much I miss this person, but it would make any potential blocking and leaving entirely guilt-free for me. I suppose I should give them one last chance to show that they care. Or don't. It's unfair to me that I can't move on with my life because this person wants to keep me waiting.

I made a simple and reasonable request, which I have given a month to...
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Picture's a little too dramatic to be accurate, but it works.

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I'm unsure how to deal with someone when I don't know how to talk with them about the things that are bothering me. On the one hand, I hate to give up too easily. On the other, it's been 8 months. If it's been 8 months and I don't know how to talk about what's wrong then that in itself strikes me as a problem.

Seems the friends I've told this story to are more concerned than I was. Hmm.

I was checking the bids on a porn auction when I came across this comment.

If I knew that My tax return was coming before the 30th, I would Outbid right now.
*sadface*

This falls into the same category as, Damn, I don't get paid until XX! I'll never understand your obsession with spending money the moment you acquire it. -_-

Makes me emotionally tumultuous. Not all bad....just dramatic...all over the map.

Easter family stuff is winding down. I need to do some productive stuff. Tomorrow maybe.

I've got some of it to do.

Damn did I ever work myself into a delicate situation. =/