Okay, I actually have things to tell about this one.

NOW IF YOU DON'T WANT TO BE SPOILED, I ADVISE YOU TO READ THE CHAPTER BEFORE READING MY EXPLANATIONS HERE.

First, know that it's only the half of what I planned to upload. But the chapter became so big that I decided to split it in two parts. Now, why has it become so big? Simply because I had a lot to say in it.

Good artists and good writers are generally those who put soul in their creation, but I usually avoid to involve too much of my point of views because I don't like the idea of being judged on what matters to me. But in a way, I can say that I tried to put soul into this part.

If you're familiar with my work, you know there's a theme I love to write about, however childish it can looks : empathy, or the capacity to really understand the other. Why is that so important to me? Maybe because of my personal story, because I never really felt understood. Since I felt so out-of-reach for others, I wanted them to not feel the same, and I always tried to sincerely see things from their point of view. And I like to think I can, even if life tends to prove me I'm wrong once in a while. Over time, I grew fascinated by how different the thinking patterns and the emotional reactions of others were. I often see people as living enigmas.

But this is a gift that can also be a curse, because in my case, even if I often understand, I generally lack the capacity to use my words in a right way, and I'm not good at using them to actually provide help to those who would need some compassion in there life. And also because it's exhausting to feel what the other feels. When they are happy, it feels good and you're happy for them, but eventually it also throws you back to your own unhappiness and you wonder why this isn't happening to you. And when they feel bad, well... you simply struggle to not feel as bad as they do. It's the kind of gift that needs to come with some kind of firewalls. That's why I'm not so good at relationships, because isolation is a kind of protection, in the end of the day.

I sincerely think the world would be a better place if people sincerely tried to understand each other. Everyone wants to be understood. And often as a spectator, I witness many scenes that simply feel like nonsense. I see people getting angry at each other over misunderstandings, I see people unconsciously hurting each other because they don't take others' feelings in considerations when they speak or behave. And like it's been told in this chapter, I often have the feeling that this world creates the very monsters they are complaining about.

This is what I'm trying to show in these chapters. I'm not trying to complain or to be pitied, because all in all, I'm really proud of myself and I think this world isn't as bad as how it's pictured in the medias. Of course there are atrocities occuring every now and then, we had examples through the last year. But I feel like the world is not limited to that. I see good things too, and I think that's a real shame that we tend to give it so little credits compared to how we emphasize on bad things. In my point of view, understanding the other instead of hating him/her over judgement is already finding personal peace.

When we feel angry, when we feel disrespected, of course it can be because someone is really acting bad or selfishly. But maybe it's a false idea or a simple assumption. When we get a bad feeling about someone who simply looks mean, and we get to understand why he or she is behaving like that, of course it doesn't bring an excuse to the person, but we can get over it more easily.

As human beings, we're all the result of a unique personal history that forged our temper, our behavior pattern. And when we sincerely take the time to look closely, people generally appear less evil than they seemed to be in the first place. Like in the text, I also sometimes take the time to look and listen to people, and wonder if they measure how beautiful their souls can be.

That will be all for my little speech^^ I hope I didn't bore you this. I'm a dreamer, yes, but I'm also a realist, and surely not a lesson teller. It was just some personal thoughts I tried to put in my story, and that I wanted to share with my readers.

Stay tuned for the next part, I hope to release it soon :)

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